I’ve been a ghost not only here, but on many of my subscription sites as well. For more than one reason, if you’ve been wondering! I certainly didn’t mean for my lack of posting to spiral out of control, but a number of things combined made it harder and harder for me to get back into the swing of things.
Firstly, I felt like I was running out of interesting things to write about! Being stuck inside due to the stay at home order that lasted a whole two months in my city—and even now things haven’t changed much—has really taken a toll on my creativity and motivation. Especially with the weather warming up and summer quickly rolling in. Not being able to enjoy nature and the many local parks, which is a favorite pastime of mine, now that winter is gone has been hard for me to deal with. It’s given me such a mix of feelings; I’ve been extremely unmotivated yet incredibly stir crazy, so bored yet not able to focus or maintain interest in anything. Have you been feeling any of these same things?
Just when I was planning to pull myself together and get back on track with my life I began having extreme pain in one of my wisdom teeth. If you’ve let your teeth grow then you’re familiar with the pain of them trying to push their way into a place where there isn’t room. I could hardly open my jaw for three days; the right side of my face was swollen and puffy, my gums were inflamed and it hurt to swallow. Naturally this put my work on pause, since all I could think about was the intense pain in my mouth. I booked an exam with a local dentist only to find out I need to a specialist—an oral surgeon no less. Not only that, but I don’t just need the tooth that’s been bothering me out, I need all four of my wisdom teeth removed!
Towards the end of my pain being too bad for me to create content, I began focusing on spreading awareness for the current events involving justice for Black people murdered by cops and protesting police brutality. Filming and editing was the last thing on my mind. I immediately began sharing as much information as I could, researching myself, and gathering supplies so I could begin aiding protesters as a medic. I continued to promote my platforms but could not bring myself to work beyond that with everything going on in the world combined with my personal health issues.
Yesterday was my exam with the oral surgeon where I learned I’m going to be paying over two thousand dollars for my teeth extractions! YIKES! This new information has been like a candle under my ass to get back to work! If you didn’t already know, in just over a month I’m going to be moving to Florida, which is 1000 miles from my current residence. That is already going to cost me a pretty penny, and I’ve already invested several hundred into this move as well, so backing out isn’t an option for me. Finding out the tremendous cost of the oral surgery I so desperately need has me feeling all kinds of stressed out! My anxiety has taken over in full force and all I can think about is what if things don’t turn out okay? Rationally though, I know all will be good! And I can’t wait to get these teeth out of my face so I don’t have to deal with the pain anymore!
I appreciate you taking the time to catch up with me and learn what I’ve been up to in my absence! Thank you so much for reading my blog. As always you can keep up with me constantly on my Twitter, and I’m pretty active on Instagram and Reddit, too. If you want to see all of my newest videos check out PrincessKira.net, and KirasFans.com for tons of exclusive photosets plus access to my private Snapchat account.