Are you surprised to hear that I spend my money on other models? I’ve been purchasing videos from and tipping models ever since I began my career in the adult industry! I absolutely love supporting my fellow sexworkers—and seeing their hot content, of course. I tip my friends, models I look up to, and pornstars that I like to watch!
I wasn’t always so confident about the fact that I buy porn, though. Especially about purchasing it from my fellow content creators; I was unsure if that was something that was acceptable or not. Thinking back on it, it’s so silly to believe other sexworkers wouldn’t like me or would think less of me for supporting my fellow models.
Nobody has ever heard the story of the very first time I purchased content, though. Now, I talk freely about tipping models on cam, buying videos, and sending my friends money. But back when this took place, not so much. I was only 18 and just dipping my toes into the world of sexwork and online domination. The online community was very intimidating to me and I was always concerned with what others thought of me.
The very first time I decided to spend my money on porn, it was femdom content! Since I started my sexwork journey in online female domination, I was constantly seeing beautiful, powerful women. I’m pansexual and a Switch, so naturally I found myself very attracted to a number of my colleagues. I contemplated it for a while before I decided to follow through with a purchase. I imagine it’s a lot like what runs through other peoples’ minds as they decide whether or not to purchase my clips!
Do you ever see a model and can’t comprehend how gorgeous they are because their beauty is just otherworldly? That’s how I felt about the model I bought clips from for the first time. I scrolled through her Twitter and was mesmerized by the previews. Sorry to be crass but, I knew I needed to cum to her. And the freebies on her social media weren’t gonna cut it for me.
As I mentioned, I was very insecure about the fact that I wanted to buy porn. To make my first content purchase, I made a burner account with a very generic throwaway name. I chose two low priced clips and as I bought them I felt a new kind of excitement. I still feel it every time I buy videos or sent a tip! It was so hot to get off to videos I selected myself and paid for rather than the low quality sea of junk on tube sites.
That wasn’t my first time secretly purchasing clips from a model. I did it two or three more times before I got enough confidence to buy things from my own model account. Now, I reach out to models and let them know how much I loved their clip! It makes me happy to support my fellow sexworkers and to ethically consume porn. What was your first content buying experience like?! I’d love to know!